In tomorrow's Kerrang! magazine Slipknot drummer Joey Jordison speaks frankly about his long running, and very private, battle with drug addiction for the first time.
"I realised I had a problem with narcotics when I realised that I wasn't just hurting myself, I was hurting the people around me," Jordison told Kerrang! "I had a real moment of clarity last year. My girlfriend at the time, a girl who I thought I was gonna be with forever, cheated on me and I went on a three week coke binge. I actually wrote some of the riffs for the new album [All Hope Is Gone] around that time, which is the only good thing to come out of it. But I just wasn't having fun anymore and my family knew it.
"My sister, Annie, kept trying to call me but I didn't want to speak to anyone. The phone was off the hook," he continues. "I didn't answer my door, the lights were off, and I was just fucking ragingly pissed off all the time. So she sent me a picture of my nephew. He was trying to play drums and he was wearing one of my old masks. And so I called her and she put him on the phone and he said 'I love you uncle Joey', and I was like 'Fuck it, I'm done. This is fucking stupid.' I realised I was basically fucking dying. It took that to make me realise what was really important in my life and that I'd done a lot of mean things to people."
Jordison also told K! that he's already bought his own grave.
"It's over down on Second Avenue [in Slipknot's home town of Des Moines, Iowa]," he says. "That's what being in Slipknot does to you."
For the full no-holds-barred interview, be sure to pick up a copy of tomorrow's Kerrang! magazine.