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“I powered through. I survived”: Check out n0trixx’s powerful new song, hysteria [БЕГN]

Russian-born alt.rapper n0trixx’s new song from her forthcoming debut album is about how, “You can be dancing through your life and still desperately wanting it to end.”

“I powered through. I survived”: Check out n0trixx’s powerful new song, hysteria [БЕГN]
Words:
Nick Ruskell
Photo:
Andy Ford

In the run up to her forthcoming debut album next month, Russian-born, Brit-based alt.rapper n0trixx has given a taste of the darkness within with haunting new single, hysteria [БЕГN].

Over an industrial beat and shadowy bass, and with a repeat of the song's subtitle (meaning 'run' in Russian), the track and its video are a stark look at suicidal thoughts and finding the strength to come through them.

“This song means more to me than I can put into words – it’s a celebration,” she says. “About two years ago I was walking through one of the darkest periods of my life and I was on the edge of ending it. What stopped me from doing something stupid were my two little ones – I obviously couldn’t do that to them. So I powered through. I survived.

“This song was written during that crisis. I remember the lyrics coming to me while I was routinely planning my escape. It was giving me that sense of control over my life. And I just put all of that disturbing feeling into a song.

“When I was producing the instrumental to it, I didn’t want it to sound depressing. I wanted to break the cliches. You can be dancing through your life and still desperately wanting it to end.”

The song comes from n0trixx's debut album, A Catalogue Of Madness And Melancholia, which drops on March 13. Like the single, a thread exploring mental health runs through it.

“A Catalogue Of Madness And Melancholia is a journey into the depths of a troubled mind,“ she says. “I was halfway through writing the album when I realised that every track I was working on was a sonic representation of a certain mental health issue. Further into the album, I managed to create a unique collection of disorders in an audio form. It invites the listener to experience what it might be like to struggle with one of these but also stresses how important it is to take care of mental wellbeing.“

Following the album's release, n0trixx is hitting the road – catch her live at the following:

n0trixx spring 2026 UK tour

March

13 Exeter Cavern
14 Mansfield Legends Sports Bar & Lounge
19 London Dublin Castle
20 Chipstead The Lighthouse
21 Liverpool Kazimier Stockroom
27 Manchester The Peer Hat
28 Newcastle Zerox
29 Edinburgh Bannerman’s

April

2 Chelmsford Hotbox
3 Pontypridd The Green Rooms
4 Gloucester Alt All Dayer
5 Bristol Exchange

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