We join Bryan lounging on a settee at home, where he’s actually had more of a chance than you might expect to spend time recently.
Though things were always on, always something to do, the focus was on doing less, but making a statement of whatever they did – Louisville, Brixton, the main stages at Germany’s Rock am Ring and Rock im Park, next to BMTH, Weezer, Biffy and A Day To Remember.
Their European headlining run, even, “was only, like, 10 days, so it didn’t even really feel like a tour”. As a hardcore band used to grafting on the road, where a full diary is an indicator of dedication, “this was something very new to us”.
What it meant was that every show was its own, an opportunity in itself. Each could be treated almost individually, as the band and their crew – “That’s weird, we have crew now, and we’re talking about buses for them and trucks for everything, which I never thought we’d ever be dealing with, but it means we get to give our friends jobs…” – properly thought about how to put Knocked Loose on the world’s biggest stages while keeping them red in tooth and claw.
For Bryan, it also offered time to take a decent look at himself and how he was navigating this brave new world.
“We’re a band that’s so go, go, go, go, go,” he explains. “And I’ve never really had that mental break where I can go: ‘Am I taking care of myself? Am I doing this the best way that I can? Am I the best version of myself? Am I the best bandmate that I can be?’ There was a lot of reflecting, so that I could come back stronger, and so that I could learn what I need in the future to operate at a higher capacity.”
The break also allowed Bryan “to take a step back and look at where things have gotten. I was a kid when this started. I’m no longer a kid, and I’m juggling more things in my personal life, more things in my career, and trying to really focus on how to do that in a healthy way.”
One thing he comes back to more than once is learning. “I always want to keep learning, because that’s how you improve yourself.”
As well as working out how to adapt, that’s also using struggles and difficulties to figure out how to avoid them in future. When asked about any pressure of knowing there was an opportunity to step up, he points to the making of and first touring for You Won’t Go… as an example of what he’s been picking through to know how to be stronger next time.
“I don’t want to say that I was burnt out by any means, but the last album was the first time being in this band that was a very difficult process for me personally,” Bryan says. “I was overthinking everything, struggling with my voice, struggling with lyrics, all these things that made the process a little bit harder. Then we went straight into touring and straight into all of the success that that record had and what it continues to be.
“As soon as I had the opportunity to take a step back and talk to myself, it was about, ‘Okay, how do I never go through that again? What would a record sound like if I was not in that headspace? What would it feel like for me personally as a musician?’ So, there was a lot of reflecting in that sense that I think was very beneficial for me on a personal level.”